Monday, June 4, 2018

Samuel David Silva




For the longest time I really expected my water to break and then we would go to the hospital and have a baby.  That's how the first two came, so I just imagined that. Alice was a scheduled induction so we don't know how her's would have come.  As my due date got closer, though, and my water wasn't breaking, I started to imagine I would be timing contractions... if they even came before I would be induced at 41 weeks!  I had an appointment on Friday and the doctor said I was dilated to a 4 already.  That was encouraging.  I hadn't been having regular painful contractions, but I did notice how my stomach would tighten uncomfortably more often and my hip joints were miserably sore.  Later that day got more uncomfortable and I hardly slept on Friday night.  It was mostly that my hips were so sore I couldn't find a position that worked.  The next morning my contractions started sporadically and still, I wasn't certain if it was just gastrointestinal pain.  My hips and other leg joints were aching so badly I could hardly walk and I was so, so tired.  I managed to get an hour nap and after that my body started to feel a little better other than the contractions here and there.  My parents arrived at noon and the contractions continued 10 to 30 minutes apart.  Chris and my dad gave me a blessing that night. I remember that he blessed me that I would know the signs in my body and know when to go in.  He also blessed me that I would get the care that I needed.  That night I dreaded another sleepless night.  I managed to get a couple hours in before my hips and back pain were just too much.  I took my pile of pillows out to the couch and arranged them into a sleeping throne.  It was pretty good, but I soon found my contractions were too close together to really sleep.  After timing them for about 40 minutes, I went and woke up Chris.  They were still 6 or 7 minutes apart, but I felt like we should get ready and just go see if they would take us.  I showered and gathered my things and we got to the hospital around 3:30.  In triage they checked me and I was already a 6 or 7 so we were admitted.  My contractions continued to get stronger and more regular.  I got my epidural and it helped, but took a long time to spread to the left side of my body.  In fact, when she put the catheter in, that was the most painful part and I continued to feel that in there for a long time.


 Eventually, it became the regular old waiting game and I laid there in bed waiting for something to happen.   Chris even made a sarcastic comment on the family thread about how action packed our day was.  8 hours of Amy laying on a bed!   They wouldn't break my water because the baby's head wasn't well applied to the cervix and there was a risk of a prolapsed cord (the umbilical cord slipping out before the head and cutting off circulation to the baby).  They did put me on Pitocin as my contractions were starting to die down.  Shortly after, I noticed some wetness on my leg.  Chris checked it out and said oh, I think your water is breaking.  Right after that, I yelled as a startling explosion sent water spraying down to the end of my bed.  When Jane's water had broken, it was a gush, but this was an explosion.  We called for the nurse and she came in to check me.  That's when everything changed. With one hand inside me pushing the baby's head off the cervix, she started pulling out cords and setting off alarms with her other hand.  "Prolapsed Cord!" became the call as doctors and nurses rushed in.  I tried to keep it together but tears came fast as I tried to process the commotion.  It was scary how urgently they were trying to get me to the operating room.  The nurse stayed on my bed holding Sam's head as they wheeled me to the OR.  I lost sight of Chris and entered a bright room with more doctors and nurses rushing around.  They slid me off my bed and onto the operating room table.  There wasn't enough time to use my epidural for the operation.  They had to put me under.  "Just splash it on her belly" I heard one doctor yell.  Someone put an oxygen mask on me and told me to breath.  I felt prickling in my IV and drifted off.

It took about 4 minutes, Chris said.  When they took me out of the room, he sent a brief text to the family thread, "Prolapsed cord.  Emergency C-section" and then started changing into the scrubs they had given him.  They said if they didn't put me all the way under, he'd be able to go in with me.  But 4 minutes after I had left, they told him the baby was out and just fine.  They took him to the recovery room and there he met Sam and fed him a bottle.  An hour later they brought me into recovery as well.



Waking up from the general anesthesia was awful.  Just awful.  I was confused and in pain and so emotional.  I immediately started crying which caused my nose to get stuffed up.  Then I felt like I couldn't breathe. My throat hurt from the tubes that had been down them and I kept struggling to sit up.  A nurse holding Sam kept trying to give him to me so he could nurse and we could have some skin time.  She kept claiming it would help me feel better, but that's the last thing I wanted right then.  She put him on me and basically hooked him up herself.  I could hardly see him or focus on anything.  Chris was patient and sympathetic.  I'm sure he'd been anxious for me to wake up and see Sam too, but it wasn't until later that night that I would hold him and gush about how perfect he is.  






 After a while they moved us to our room and my parents brought the kids over to meet them.  I was still groggy, but it was nice to see them.  Jane was so excited to hold Sam and so sweet with him.  Alice and Peter wanted to sit next to me on the big bed, but were too rambunctious to stay there long.  It was such a blessing to have my parents there to take care of the kids so Chris could spend more time in the hospital with me. I definitely felt like I needed the help more after a surgery.






Sunday, March 11, 2018

Goodbye, Vancouver

There were a number of reasons it was inconvenient timing to go visit Vancouver for a week, but my parents move was set and I kept ignoring those reasons and telling myself, in the end I won't regret making one last visit to my old home and helping them pack up their things.  So we went.  It's about 15 hours of driving and we broke it into two days.  The kids were remarkable travelers, playing well together and keeping themselves occupied without movies or screens until about 6pm the second day.  (Miraculous, really).




We broke up the packing with a few outings to some of my favorite Vancouver spots.

LYNN CANYON
I have so many good memories of Lynn Canyon through the years.  Mostly family outings, but also a memorable 5th grade field trip and a few visits with teen and young adult friends.  I love the green moss covered trees and ferns running all the way down the canyon walls.  The water is jello green in parts and always ice cold.  We did our standard hike down to the water and let the kids throw rocks in the water.














GRANVILLE ISLAND
I will miss this artsy, cultural area with its interesting shops and bustling market.   As we stood outside the market taking in the beautiful view and watching the kids chasing seagulls I caught my mom just starting to get emotional.  She said she had only really been excited about the move, but this was one of the first times she felt that "I'm really going to miss this place" kind of feeling.  Granville island will do that to you.









SCIENCE WORLD
I haven't been back to science world since I was a kid, but I'm so glad we chose to do it this time.  The kids loved it and it was a fun trip down memory lane for me too.  Also, it was heaven to do an outing like this WITHOUT a stroller.   I know we're still a long ways from ditching the stroller for good, so I'm going to savor these rare occasions.





WATERSHED
We couldn't leave without a walk through watershed.   It's so close to my parents house and such a beautiful escape.  I adore these Pacific Northwest forests.